embraced by God’s angel

i can still feel the kid’s embrace up to this moment…

i approached Michael, a classmate in Grad school, to say  hello … not knowing that he was with his kid and wife…

when his son went beside Michael,  i asked what his name is and he uttered his full name which was quite unclear…

i reached out for him and lifted him up…  the angel-boy

his small arms reached for me….

he doesn’t have cares if i was a stranger…

when i was holding him, i looked at his face…

he streteched his arms …

rested his head onmy right shoulder….

and he embraced me!!!…

that was the GENTLEST gesture i EVER experienced in my (conscious) lifetime!!!!

my heart melted…

my worries and stress vanished for a moment…

i wish i could say that i felt the kid’s heartbeat… but  i was so engrossed of what was happening…

i was embraced by God’s angel!

was it the innocence that made the difference?

or maybe just the “magic” of kids have….

imagine what an embrace of God’s angle can do…

i hope I’ll be more aware of God’s daily embrace….

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missing out

was i browsing my “friendsters” (meaning not all are close friends) photos in friendster and started to think about the things that i missed in life…

1. kids… there are those friendsters that are younger than me (hahaha! at the age of 32 what would i expect???) and already have kids… i enjoyed looking at their photos!

2. buying a car… whaaaaaaaaaaa! not a need but just crossed my mind 😉

3. taking a break/vacation… huhuhu, my bestfriend and our friends has just been to  boracay… la ko ya kaupod kay i have class = (

i think i have to stop writing… i’m feeling more depressed! hahahaha!

 actually, my point is: i always have the option/choice in how i will go on with my life’s affairs…. i might have missed out things in life BUT i realized that there are just things/ decisions that i can simply make without taking into consideration the important factors surrounding them… somehow i’m glad i made those decisions… hehehehe

positive reflections in the next entry 😉

fathers

condolence to my firend Nikki Carrascoso whose father died last November 4, 2006.  also to Joseph Ocbena whose father died yesterday 13 November 2006. their death reminded me of Tatay who died March 2003.

a few weeks ago Tatay crossed my mind and i began to realize how i missed him. when i turned 32, i remember thinking about how was life for Tatay when he was 32 …. someone who has a family; with kids to send to school and provide for their needs. tatay was born 27 september 1951, he was 51 when he died. at the time that we was 32, i was already 9 years old!… which also means there was really a lot of pressures going on around him when he was at the age as i have now. which such realization, come my appreciation and admiration of Tatay. he has gone through a lot in life…. and yet he was able to raise us the best way he knew/can.

wherever you are right now, tay…. i hope i’m making you proud…

 more on Tatay, soon

power

i’ve been thinking of writing something about this…

question: who is the only person that can make the President of the US or any powerful person nod or shake their head???

answer: the barber! hahaha!

in a world where having POWER means a lot for most people, i find it an enjoyable experience whenever i have to pass through security guards. these men and women may have humble jobs but look who’s got power here?!?!?!

for a couple of times already, i tried to observe this young security guard who’s assigned in the entrance  where i usually pass through going to the office. sometimes i would present my bag for inspection (for security purposes),  this guy would just nod his head that would mean i can pass through and i would usually nod back with a smile. the guard would then be back in his pensive look, this time with pride. well, tell me if it’s not close to showing power. hehehe. for me, that’s something to think about..

the daily few seconds of walk from the our building’s entrance to the door of our office, reminds me of how people enjoy having power… sad thing is, there are tendencies that power to be abused.

i hope that i can be more responsible of handling my own power….

“… with great powers, comes great responsibilities….”

corner

theres’s this line that says “each of us have our own place under the sun”. come sing with me: dito ba? o dito ba? ang sulok kong takda sa ilalim ng araw… 😉

why am i bringing this up? i actually just came from the comfort room (oppss, this is no toilet humor, hehehe) and i don’t know why but i’m more comfortable to pee in “my corner urinal”.  actually, there are 2 Male CRs our office building … the one near our office closes at 5pm and the other one is open for the whole day. And in every CR, i have a favorite urinal.. which is usually in the corner most part. i don’t know,  but i’m amused in this behavior of choosing “those” urinals.. maybe i simply find more comfort and security doing my own thing there.

so what’s my point? point is,  there are really decisions that we make every single second… from choosing what to wear, what to eat, how to react and yes, even where to pee. bottomline: i’m used of going with what or where i’m most comfortable. i realized this and wouldn’t deny that i’m the LESS RISK-TAKER type of person… with such comes my justification that it’s me who would enjoy the benefit or suffer the consequence of my decisions.

on the otherhand, maybe soon i should also try to take chances on other unusual and non-traditional things…

about my corner urinals: we will be transfering office in a couple of days… and i will miss them 😉